Thursday, October 15, 2009

Hola for Ash-sheee!!

It's Alright It's OK by Ashley Tisdale

You told me
There's no need
To talk it out
Cause its too late
To proceed
And slowly
I took your words
And walked away

No looking back
I wont regret, no
I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say

It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's Alright, it's OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

You played me
Betrayed me
Your love was nothing but a game
Portrayed a role
You took control, I
I couldn't help but fall
So deep
But now I see things clear

It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's Alright, it's OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

Don't waste your fiction tears on me
Just save them for someone in need
It's way too late
I'm closing the door

It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's Alright, it's OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

It's Alright, it's OK
Alright, OK
Without you
No matter what you say
It's Alright, it's OK
Alright, OK
Without you
I won't be sorry

eff the besh at 10:53 PM

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Wednesday, October 07, 2009

If only

Im doing my case report.. Actually finishing it coz the teacher just have something to correct. Am currently listening to city of angel OST. Its the "Iris" song now. Suddenly u know, i feel like sharing my thots after class today. This is a bit rediculous but i myself think maybe i have bipolar disorder. My sis used to call me crazy for saying these things to her.

The reason i thot about that was bcoz im having depression earlier today. Like... U know.. Severe depression. Maybe not THAT severe but i think severe!
Ok.. Somehow my brain refused to accept that its hormone( maybe theyr fighting with each other u know.- the sense n the hormone)
so as i sat in mashrutka/bus i thot "if i have an alter ego, wat wud her name be?" its crazy rite? I know! I always think i live with part of a soul, but i cudnt realy find my other soul. Ok i know i started to sound crazy. But dont go. Yet. Im not done.

So i thot : my alter ego's name wudhv been JANE.
I like that name. I mean i like Jane. Think ive been having Jane since i was 13.
When i discovered that i need a soulmate u know. Owh i sound pathetic now..

Well thats basically about it. I got case report to finish.
Whoever u are Jane, u brought smiles to my face. It was U. Yes..

Labels: funny thots

eff the besh at 10:11 PM

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Thursday, October 01, 2009

Berundur tak bererti kalah

Lidah setajam pisau.pernah ku baca kisah seorg imam yg mengajar muridnya utk lebih berhati2 ketika berbicara. Aku juwa bukanlah insan yg sempurna utk mendapat tahfiz sebagai pasangan hidup. Dan bukan juwa org jahat utk dpt kasanova. the point is, sometimes u don't have to be with someone u love in order to be happy. Sometimes u just hav to let it go. Takde jodoh nk buat camne kan?org yg bercinta lama2 pon kekadang kawen ngan org lain. Nikan pula org yg bercinta skejap.but to tell u the way I let go was always wrong. I duno how to talk to them strongly that il do good alone. I just hav to do it rough way. Saye akan kutuk sampai dia marah. then il feel bad about it.-alone. But come n think about it, I actually am helping him to move on. Then this is the best way to let go. Sbb ckp 10 Kali pon x paham2. Tu je la ubatnye. But at least I'm a straight forward.I man up n tell the truth. Bukan nye sorok2 n give trillion reasons why we can't be together.

Labels: story for soul

eff the besh at 12:44 AM

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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

home or away?

im here in ukraine. yay... (not excited at all)

i just arrived for almost 3 weeks now.i celebrated raya.. my frens bday.. and then the time wil come again..when i miss home..

i just came n im missing home?? wat the heck??!?

i got evrything that i need here well of coz except my family. and my 42inch plasma tv.

and gucci..salem.. argh too much to think about!

car, shoes,room,jeans, washing machine, i forgot to bring em all???

i didnt go for class today as i dont feel well.

i had this feelings since 3 days ago. i feel down..

now really i feel sick. sore throat, stuffy nose (this stage medically termed - catharral symptom.

i didnt take flu medicine as it hasnt developed yet.

so i just took panadol n vit.c instead. and yes ig6.

on top of that i ate spaghetti pasta with hot chilli sauce as gravy. (great! wat a good remedy to irritate ur throat n stomach)

pls do not try this anywhere on earth.

yes. being away from home is not easy peeps.

even when u came back from school, ppl will ask "hey wer u going afterwards?"

and u say "go home." or sometimes u wil say " go back."

but the meaning is stil the same.

and i remember one day i was mad at my teacher i grumpily packed my stuffs and thinking of going away while my teacher bz asking questions. then she stopped n asked me "eff, wat do u think?"

and i said 'i THINK i wanna go home"

and literally i meant that!

see even when ur away the place where u live has to be ur home. while ur at home, ur thinking of going to ur REAL home.

hurm im crapping to much.think i need some sleep.

chio!

Labels: story for soul

eff the besh at 11:34 AM

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Saturday, September 12, 2009

damn! im sooo buzy packing up my stuffs got no time to bathe! and i almost smell like...yeww

have to check important things to bring ;

-the passports(have two-one for the visa and the other for travel)

-student cheski (card)

-country entrance slip

-credit cards/bank cards

-flight tickets! with the terminals!

-medicine ( i got sick a lot)

-place to stay in london ( i found one near queensway which is quite cheap)

-and train time its very important! dun wanna be left behind.

funny thing is wen i search for the earliest train, (well i forgot the time although ive been there couple of times) i found this.

T.M @ 4.35pm

"Go clubbing, then straight to the airport- you can leave the luggage in the lockers of the nearest train station. I've done this a couple of times (in both occasions showing up at the airport still off my tits :D ) and it worked pretty well.

Or you could take a mini cab to central London and then the night bus service. It'd be much cheaper than cabbing it all the way."

its not safe dun try this peeps! ;) why?

1st-dun trust cabbie in london!

2nd-dont leave ur belongings wen u dont know the working hours (well the safe-lock there didnt work from 11pm-7am). find a better secured place!

owh 15 mins finish. hafta do...this n that. chio!

p/s: why the hell my notes got spacing? argh il edit it later.

Labels: travel

eff the besh at 8:32 AM

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Tuesday, September 08, 2009

the doc joke

i came across these on facebook & i think its funny!

7 reasons why i wanna become a doctor;

1-i hate to sleep
2-i liked to stay in school forever
3-i liked nobody can read my handwriting
4-my father has extra money for all my life
5-i thought i had enjoy my life enough
6-im well trained to listen!

7-i wanted to pay for my sins

Labels: funny thots

eff the besh at 9:04 PM

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Sunday, September 06, 2009

.:.::Welcoming Autumn::.:.

brape lama dah tak ade videoclip? well...baru 3-4 post agaknye. so ok kali ni saye nk bawa bloggers ke arah russian side lak. meh kite menjiwai lagu org rusia ni.

tajuk dia "Autumn" - well..its the least favourite time of the year but we'r almost there peeps.

so enjoy the clip. i will try to put the wordings into english so u guys can sing along. :)

hav fun!

Баста - Осень

Болит душа от потерь
Верю я, ты тоже верь
Наступит день, уйдёт печаль
Придёт весна, уйдёт февраль
И мне не жаль, ничего не жаль
Полный газ и в пол педаль
Время стоп, стоп печаль
Улетай

(chorus)

balit dusya ot poter

veru ya, ti toje verr

nastupid dent,uidut pechal

pridyet vesna, uidyut febral

i mne ne jal, nichevo ne jal

polnih gaz i v pol pedal

vremia stop, stop pechal

uletai

TRANSLATE

My soul hurts from the loss
I believe - you also believe
There will come a day where the pain will fade
The spring will come - Feburary will fade
And i don't feel pity - nothing is a shame
Press the gas and the pedal to the floor
Time stops, the grieving stops
Fly away

Autumn brings on the mad rushing winds
Torrential rain, and cold days,
Sleepless nights
Yellow leaves, strange thoughts.
In search of the truth, my questions are like shots
I am in loneliness, freedom is so desirable
The sky is the only one that cares about me
To break down and to build, let no one argue with me
Through the coast of life, you will not stop me
At me you look, in opinion of coldness
You want to be with me, but the city hold you back
You search for an occasion, but not to keep me
I'm free like a bird, i was born to fly
It's difficult to understand me, it's difficult to forget me
It's difficult to lose me, it's difficult to love me
I lose you again and again
For you, for love I am ready to give you everything

Maybe somebody will tell me
about, how i am not right
about, that i live in illusions
I live in dreams
Overcoming fear, overcoming pain
I hardly breathe, I hardly live, my heart barely beats
Stop, wait for me a little
Stop, sing to me, its a long journey
About how it will be difficult
About how the wind blows
Let what will be, be,
Let the sky judge me...
And i will return to you
With a melody of decline,
And i shall return, not comimg back
How this is not strange
That my way home is lit with stars
I know it's never too early, I know it's never too late
Tears flow, the sky cries
If it is necessary to wait - I shall wait, there is time.
Know that i don't hurry you
To say the three most important words - 'I love you'...