Friday, December 19, 2008

towards the end of 2008

towards the end of 2008
well people like it or not, here we are..counting days to 2009.
just like evry year previous year always give tears and happiness to evryone.
as for me, 2008 changed me a lot.
See, ppl say life is like circle of wheel.when ur on top, u cant see ppl suffering under, but when u got rolled over, practically down there, man u have no idea! and so they said again that “dont make same mistake twice”.
In my defence, of course i don’t wanna do it if i knew that it will be a mistake at the first place, got me?
In spite of mistakes, I moved on. Looking for chances, being more carefully and trust less people. ??
Yikes! Its ridiculous but things that I dun wanna be have become me.
I was an optimistic, skeptical and lovable person who one loves to enjoy as company. But negative radicals that float around me sumhow turned me into one. There I go pointing fingers at ppl again.
Well to tell u the truth, I enjoy knowing new people, learning new culture, and being nice. 51% angel, 49% devil people. Push it and u’l know just how much..
I wanna tell u a story, about the golden words from my great granny.
To let u guys know that towards the end of this year, i developed this one habit that i never liked since i was a kid. My granny used to say dont sleep during day time, it’l make u a lazy person!I’ve been carrying that “words” at the back of my mind for years without any intensions of sleeping during day time. For years! Since I was a kid!
Its like my signature to not to sleep at day time. Even when I had insomnia last time, I slept 2 or maybe 1 and half hour per day without even curi2 tido during day time. I wont sleep no matter what.
But somehow recently i started to do that so.
Gosh..maybe its true that depression makes u go either insane or dead.

Well since its winter, i wud probably call it as "winter depression".

The etiology of this disease is probably due to severe boredom, given up or energy conserving or i wud rather call it "fat burning" as it kills off ur sugar craving by partying with Chuck Bass and "REM activity" - as it makes u jog with Micheal Scofield when ur sleeping.

This all shall pass and i hope i can get rid of this hate able habit.