Saturday, May 09, 2009

lost

harini ingatkn nak tukar template blog.. butso suddenly i lost the feelings to.. its just emptiness.
now i remember, last time i told one of my frens - if u feel empty, turn to Him. but of course.. when it comes to me..spring feels like winter. second feels like hours, day feels like night. so cold.. so..lost.

i miss the free times that i used to spend em with my family..close frens..
u know, the more i live i think that im making more mistakes.
i lost someone i loved. i broke peoples heart. i took them for granted.
i am mean.maybe i deserve this.
living alone with nothing. maybe this is my punishment.

but how can it be fair?
i feel euphoric at one stage for a short time. n i also feel depressed n lonely. unloved. alone. - for a hell of a long time!gosh feels like crying! world is cruel! death is cruel!
wer can i go?..
i just wish i can turn back time n fix things diffrently.
but then again..of course its like seeing cats flying.