Monday, April 12, 2010

make a print out of it

future is so hard to predict. one step u made wrong it does change the next.

it will either fasten the process or delaying it.

in the world of competition, evry step of the way counts. evryone is ur rival n evry part of u is like a working machine plus u can also feel that how fast the time passes by with a blink of an eye.

i wanted to make a drastic or shud i call it aggressive move upon my future..but i shud also remember that i dont live alone. i must take note n put under consideration of ppl around me. not to say i cared too much about them but.. they MADE me. u understand by that?

like my life is useless n/or not "a life" without them. this sounds ridiculous as ppl always say u live alone u die alone. u know that concept is not always true.

so, my plan of changes always got interrupted by the thots that maybe ppl around me might get hurt. sometimes i do feel i can live alone coz no one cares wat i did. but at the moment when i can almost feel my life is falling down the cliff or almost reach rockbottom, i always got saved by the bell. by bell i meant phonecalls. these magical phone calls always keep me alive. with activities of course. and the demands seems to make my life or m

yself feel so worth-full.

as for right here right now im doing good. doing great actually. im not depressed. i got a few more months til end of semester... i really need a break.. to clear my head up n to figure out wat my future suppose to be. or become or be with..

im confused n i dont know wat i want. yeah even up til now. u can laugh about it all u want. i dont seem to care.

i'd say if i cant be with that person, or i made decision not to be with him, i make a print out of it. as a memory. pictures r too deep so i just keep the names..

*this is a pic i took fr my krakow trip. hopefully il be able to write travelblog after this. =D