Monday, March 26, 2007
*:homesick:*
Woke up wif a heady feeling today.Not feeling gud or bad.but feeling sick! (is that bad?)skip da lecture n went fo physio class.got late n teacher suggested me to go home (hostel).loathe..
i'm sick.i have temperature,i got flu,cough..it happens evry week!OMG!! i cant believe that!
sumwhere sumhow i figured out.i miss my mum..called her today but she's buzy.i hafta understand her world of bizi-ness -->business.
Let's talk about my family. I have a mom, dad, 4 sisters,a bro, and 4 cats that each have distinct roles in my life (which are not represented by the order of the aforementioned list, by the way). I care about my family. We're pretty close knit. However, I don't think I have even once truly missed being home, barring the food and my queen-sized bed.
So,what do i miss?
I still cant figure out what frustrates me. I was looking forward to college in that I could move away from my family, absolutely, and I am enjoying the freedom immensely; at the cost of being near my family, though, it doesn't always seem worth it.
"Absence makes the heart grow fonder" - I have no idea who said that, and I doubt I even quoted it correctly, but it also strikes a shallow chord. Sometimes, absence just makes you forget.
My mind tells me that I must logically "miss" my family because I'm physically absent from the everyday events and interactions that I know are going on without me. I know that I "miss" my best friends who are at school in Malaysia coz I'm not seeing them every day, and weekly phone conversations rarely go past the catching-up of notable events in our lives and we miss out on the daily funny moments or trials that reveal each other's personalities. But, I have to admit that "maintaining" a relationship is much less emotionally taxing than striving to feed a "growing" relationship, in the way of friends at least.
Being at home, I found that my emotional isolation is a comfortable place! I enjoy talking to each of my family members on the phone once or twice a week and hearing what they're up to.
And I feel emotionally depressed about not being around them.
Erm..maybe because of that i miss being home?
When summer is over,school starts,I'l come back to Ukraine, I'l become an emotionial wreck! I think that since I've been deprived of the little daily moments for so long!
I miss shoping with my sisters,arguing with mommy n dad,jalan2 around town..
Whats my problem of missing home so much?Maybe because of this country itself?or the weather?or maybe the community around me..
eff the besh at 8:45 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
.::new trend?::.
new trend kot..geram je bunuh. hehe..nice v/clip tho..
and the lyric goes..
Не целуй меня в глаза,
Ты же знаешь ведь — это к расставанью!
Я не знаю, что сказать.
Словно сил во мне на одно дыханье!
Что ты выберешь сейчас —
станешь ли моим на целый час
или убьёшь молчаньем?
Припев:
Нож я подарю тебе, ты выиграл пари!
Ты так хотел побед — так забирай свой приз!
Чего ты ждёшь? Цветок и…
Нож я подарю тебе, ты выиграл, бери —
Теперь он вечно будет у тебя внутри,
И ты поймёшь… цветок и нож…
Поселилась в душу мне
Ревность серая и сидит занозой.
От неё спасенья нет,
Что мне делать? Пропади оно всё!
Что ты выберешь сейчас —
Станешь ли моим на целый час
Или убьёшь молчаньем?
Припев:
Нож я подарю тебе, ты выиграл пари!
Ты так хотел побед — так забирай свой приз!
Чего ты ждёшь? Цветок и…
Нож я подарю тебе, ты выиграл, бери —
Теперь он вечно будет у тебя внутри,
И ты поймёшь… цветок и нож…
Соло
Нож я подарю тебе, ты выиграл, бери —
Теперь он вечно будет у тебя внутри,
И ты поймёшь… цветок и нож…
Цветок и нож…
Цветок и нож…
eff the besh at 5:30 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
~*congrats yasmin for "Mukhsin"!!*~
"Mukhsin for Berlinale 2007!!"
Orked is ten. Mukhsin is thirteen. They are the best of friends.
With "Mukhsin", I try to examine one common and uncomfortable human experience:
What happens when your very best friend - someone with whom you've been learning to do cool best-friend things like climbing trees, flying kites, riding bicycles and even getting into fights with other kids - starts to develop romantic notions about you?
It happened to me before. Both ways. That is to say, I have had good friends who fell in love with me, and I fell unexpectedly in love with a buddy once.
I feel it's an interesting human condition to look at, because I myself have never been able to understand how, sometimes, something as beautiful as Love can threaten to end something else that's just as beautiful - Friendship.
Has this ever happened to you before? - yasmin
its not an easy bussines to create a muvi but its damn easy to critisize tho,"mukhsin" not only presented Malaysia for 57th Berlin International Film Festival 2007,also been nominated for Best Asian Film at the 19th Tokyo International Film Festival.
MUKHSIN will open in Malaysia 2007 March. It has already been picked up for international distribution by Andy Lau’s Hong Kong-based Focus Films.(more)
*other achievements:
-Sepet (Slit Eyes), about a teenage Malay girl who falls in love with a Chinese video pirate. Sepet was well-received during its commercial release, and also won Best Asian Film at last year's Tokyo festival.
-Gubra (Anxiety), Yasmin had clearly grown in confidence, her style now more assured, tackling a bigger story with multiple characters. In fact, Gubra is essentially made up of two separate stories dealing with love, loss, compassion and forgiveness. Yet again, Yasmin met with some strong criticisms, especially for her portrayal of a religious man and his wife who befriend two prostitutes. And once more, Yasmin silenced her critics by again winning the top awards at the Malaysian Film Festival.
more info
Labels: muvi
eff the besh at 2:18 AM
.::few things happen::.
**a quik flik fr a crammy hoodwhat'd i miss?
-found myself new cam
-shops for few clothes
-frens bufday
-womens day
-my voice
-KUU AGM (today)
*aa..got my books n cd!! yay!! waiting fo 'em to send me..cant wait to exercise n yoga!
*aim : shed da fupa woman!!sheesh..so fannoying!!
eff the besh at 1:42 AM
