Saturday, July 11, 2009

i cant sleep

the sound of the howling winds giving slaps of rain to my window pane. Owch..
just like the msg i received recently.and the calls...
no i cant sleep tonight.
dunno wat im thinking about so i decided to read a few blogs..
well..just some normal blogs about life..about other people outside my box.
its funny to stumble upon a piece of (i call it junk) article about places ive been and the pictures i took!
how ironic! i was gonna post the same thing about the same place n the same picture was there!
well..we all have brain that produces idea. no matter who is having it, where n when, we all share the same idea.
i mean, the same way of thinking.
well believe it or not but its true!speaking of truth or truthful..
i always..i mean ALWAYS hate cheaters. liars. especially when it involves me.
but, i seldom said - owh its just a plain white lie, when i tell lies.
yes, i regretted every single moment of it.
back to the article, flashing back, waaay back to summer last year.
i still remember, the island.. when i came to think about it, there must be a reason why i went there.
just like theres a reason why i went to sumy.just like the reason why i went to ukraine.
and just like other gazzilion reasons before this n that.but sumy was so yesterday. and the island is like day after yesterday, but not yet today.
i know as complicated as it sounds, it is more complicated when u step ur foot into it.
nope its not confortable in here. trust me.
i wanna point out here that the island doesnt mean anything to me but.. the persons who were there mean so much more a lot to me!
i couldnt sleep since yesterday. im still trying to figure out why is this happening. why? why? why?
is this wat they call blacksummer? owh no..this must be my worst nightmare.
i stumble upon my own dreams.its a damn annoying dream. im trying to catch the stars but what i didnt realize is that im walking on a silver lining.what a bad luck.
i got starstruck at first, next moment i remember - lightning struck!
owh how can this sweet moments just last for a few seconds..if only i could be near the stars again..this time i promise to praise its beauty, appreciate it, loving it.. never take my eyes off of it.
now im back to reality. daydream wont last so long they said. (eventho that was a nitemare. God..i dont even know wat to call it!)
dear readers, this is wat u got wen u didnt sleep.
man, ive gotta move on! even with a sore heart, heavy head, paining back but my pace cant never stop now.its getting near dawn already..what? already?? owhhh.. i have to get some sleep. sleep eff! theres no reason for u to think about him!he's just another piece of glass in the sea.
hes probably near the Adromeda - the planet of the others.
now i wish im one of the autobots.. to have no heart - just like him